Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Vipassana and the Ten Day Sanyas

About a decade ago, an official trip to Nasik gave me an opportunity to visit Dhammagiri at Igatpuri. You can refer to http://www.vridhamma.org/Home.aspx for more details. The location is beautiful and the Burmese styled pagoda is impressive. During the tour, I was told that the participants have to stay minimum for 10 days with no contact with the outside world and more importantly in total silence for the full period, round the clock. Even the queries to the instructor have to be minimal. The visit sprouted a wish that someday I will surely do the course.

It took more than a decade for the wish come true when I saw a small notification in local english newspaper that Vipassana course was being held in Muscat itself. Now, this was like mountain coming to Mohammed and I grabbed the opportunity and got myself registered. After the initial euphoria subsided and the emails were exchanged, I realised that this was not to be a recreational thing if that was the stuff which I had assumed. Following was made clear to me:




  1. Course was a residential one with no charges. Totally free.... now thats great, isnt it!

  2. During the course no contact with the outside world, so no mobile, no emails...... Hmmmm.

  3. All time during the course total silence to be maintained. This meant 24X7 for full 10 days. Only for queries with the teacher you are allowed but that too on a minimal basis.




The later two were intimidating and I started realising the situation which I got myself into as the date started drawing near. Frankly speaking, I would have withdrawn my participation but by then many people had come to know about my plans and my ego thus refrained from chickening out.



So on the previous evening, I was it Asas Oman- Service Apartments where the programme was to be run. Was already late so could not get into intros and check who all will be with me etc etc. Was shown my room- which was to be shared but as I was a first-timer I was given the Queen-sized double bed. I was under the impression that we would be required to sleep on floor etc etc. But for a start, the luxury gave some comfort.





Was briefed that during the stay for 10 days participants have to abstain from ;



  1. killing any being

  2. stealing

  3. sexual misconduct

  4. wrong speech- means lieing

  5. any intoxicants
Not much, I thought, as I am a vegetarean and hardly drink...... and anyways with the 10 day confinement where was the scope.



Jokes apart- the five tenets and the confinement is basically needed to create environment which makes your mind ( चित्त) not to get bogged by distractions. As mentioned earlier the Pali word Vipassana means to see things things as they are. And here we were to see inside, to close out and look inwards, to turn introvert. Moreover, these ten days it was to be an experience of living life of a Sanyasi- eating whatever has been donated by others, frugal existence and away from the प्रपंच. Would be pertinent to mention here that the course does not require any thing to be paid- in cash or in kind. So whole of the ten days, one survives on the donations other people might have given.



The schedule was a rigorous one. Get up at 4 AM and hit the sack at 9:30 PM with breakfast at 6:30 AM, lunch at 11 AM and dinner at 5 PM. Meditation being the main activity throughout. Ofcourse some rest breaks after the meals. It worked out to about 10 hours of sittings everyday. But no sitting went beyond 60 minutes at a stretch. Within these 60 minutes also we were free to take 5-10 minutes break if feeling stiff, sleepy or restless.


Silence or rather Noble Silence- आर्य मौन meant that not only we were not to talk but also not to get into eye contact or communicate through gestures. And so strongly was it maintained that only when the programme ended I came to know that there were two couples amongst the partipants. No way others could make out that the spouses knew each other. Not even a fleeting expression on their faces when accidentally happened to see eachother in all of those 10 days.


I had got into this thinking that this is meditational technique but as the programme progressed realised that its a philosophy in itself. The programme is irreligous ( one Pakistani gentlemen was also attending) but the technique was propounded by Gautam the Buddha. 2600 year before after Gautam acheived enlightment- he introduced Vipassana to common man. For 500 years after his nirvana it was popular in India but then gradually faded out. Along with Buddhism it spread out of India and the techinique in its purest form survived in Burma through closed chain of Guru-Shishya parampara. Mr Satyanarayana Goenka- a Burma born Marwari industrialist came in contact with Sayagyi U Ba Khin and learnt from him for 14 years before bringing Vipassana back to its homeland- India. In 1969 Mr Goenka started imparting this training at Dhammagiri in Igatpuri. There has been a rapid growth and now the organisation boasts of numerous centres around the globe.



The programme consists of three and half days on Anapan and six and a halfdays of Vipassana. Former consists of bringing your Chitta or Mind to concentrate by focussing on breathing. Once we get a little control on the wavering mind we are taken to Vipassana which makes us see look inward.




As regards my progress was concerned..... I was mighty nervous how I would be surviving the ten days and decided to take one day at a time- nay each hour at a time. And thus entered... There were ups and downs and lot of frustrating moments. Restlessness and waywardness of mind was the most challanging aspect to tackle. Hours went and I would realise that I had concentrated or my mind could stay focussed for few minutes in those long hours. But gradual excercise of meditation started working and thecount started going up. Another issue was to sit still on the floor. There I sat squirming and shifting every 2 minutes. And whenever tried having a peek would see my fellow paticipants still and peacefully meditating as live statues of Buddha and Mahavir. But then gradually my body also fell in line and I could maintain a steady sitting of upto 45 minutes at one stretch.



At the end of each day, Mr SN Goenka's video was played giving theoritical explanation of what all was being done as regards the technique etc. More than that the philosophical dicsussions were of much interest as he spoke on the universal Dhamma and related features.

Details about Vipassana, per-se will be posted separately. As regards my experience, it was very fruitful. Not that I have become the Enlightened one but atleast realised that there is something which can be worked for. Requires disciplined efforts further. Can only say that everyone of us should take this experience atleast once- whether or not you would like to continue on the path is immaterial but the experience of 10 days in itself is a very enlightening one.



Monday, April 26, 2010

The Ten Day Sanyas & The State of Ego

Me, Mine, I- how many times we keep reading and we keep telling ourselves that these- Me, Mine, I denote EGO अहंकार and this is one of the vices we should do away with. Religion has now turned into a big commercial activity (when it wasnt?) and with multiple channels dishing out Spirituality like 2 minute noodles.... we are now more aware of these attributes which bog us down and are impediment to the liberation of the soul blah blah..... So we dorn the sham of hypocracy...... and feign to be modest.

The two minute spiruality Maggi style sometime works and whets up an awful large apetite which requires some substantial meal and then you start looking for may be some nutritious dish which your mom used to make but then stil you want to look for a ready to heat meal which still doesnt ask you to sweat in the kitchen.

Some such moment and I realised that I have signed up for a 10 day Vipassana Course. Vipassana means looking inside in the ancient Pali language. This package was however more fussy then the MTR meal on the Hypermart shelf. To my horror I realised that this 10 day residential course involved cutting-off from the rest of the world by confining to the designated premises with no mobiles, no laptops, no emails, no facebook and no talking..... yes absolutely no talking- gesturing and eye contact included for WHOLE 10 days. Good Lord! I am a very humble being but how will my company survive for whole 10 days (6 working days infact!) and what about my family. They all need me (not the other way round!) Never has it happened in past. Ok it has happened in past but limited to 10-20 minutes when the blackberry or roaming acts funny. But here I was faced with10 full days........

Given a choice would have easily backed-off but as usual office guys ditched and wife- dependable types were stopped being made long back- I guess! Atleast office could have said that they need me on those very 10 days (7 in fact) or wifey could have become an ideal indian wife and pleaded how would she take care of MY family .... the child, the dog, the....ah well, the list finishes. But happily the guys and the woman said - enjoy! As if I was going on a Bangkok trip.

But then its my repsonsbility so left clear set of instructions everywhere that I wont be accessible but yes if emergency is there I can be brought out of the hibernation. Like all the time people took it casually...... I am the only responsible guy around.
Guess half of the Ego got deflated here itself.... Anyways, could not back-out now..... it wouldnt have looked a responsible action from such a responsible guy.

Entered the well of isolation ( please draw any comparison to the Parsi way of disposing-off their dead). Not sure whether the avarices were pecked away or not but then yesterday came back to the world. The rebirth happened by getting the Blackberry back in hand..... and that was really Nirvana.... when with the trembling fingers fed in the PIN and the screen became alive. Heart throbbing with anticipation and newly cleaned-up mind expected few hundred official emails waiting for my attention, dozens of facebook comments from friends checking where am I lost and those numerous lovey dovey sms notes from the wife how she misses me..... But alas! not a single mail required my attention...... not a single friend noticed I was absent for 10 whole days and the better-half decided to use mobile credits to talk to people who were talkable instead of wasting on sms to a non-reachable phone...... Surely something was amiss- maybe the shock was too much for my people to make them go in a denial state and not accepting that I am not around. Hope is a sign of positive mind, isnt it!

So trepidly, reached home anticpating that all dams will burst when she seems me physically in front of her. And office guys would be waiting anxiously with files in hand at 8 AM sharp. But sigh..... the whole world teamed-up to deflate whatever-remaining-ego I was left with. Door opened and with a cursory peck here and there wife related how well they managed the 10 days and even the driver-services of the unpaid driver were not missed and all the outgoings from the Pick-Brian Quiz to Paduka Pujans were all attended. Office was equally disappointing- no crisis- Boss as well as juniors managed all important jobs and kept the mundane routine ones for me.....
So here I sit an Egoless being who used to think that 11 days before that the world revolves around me! Well thats was the intent.... wasnt it! But hey... the ego was to be removed by MY conscious efforts, MY rigorous mental training but here I dint even get the opportunity to do that- everyone else teamed up to do that for me.

Sigh..... atleast this Blog will be read by many and wonderful comments will be posted; so atleast I get back some of my lost-nay, robbed Ego which then I will reove by MY genuine efforts.......

Amen!

P.S.- This is in lighter vein and the Vipassana experience on serious note will be posted soon. Keep watching....